So my presentation on Infertility and Adoption at BYU Women’s Conference was this past Thursday and sent me into near hysteria the night before. Panic set in as the reality of what I was doing hit me. It felt like I had a vice around my chest and couldn’t take a complete breath. Butterflies in my stomach, that felt like my stomach was in my throat! Having said all of that, I woke to a beautiful Spring day and dressed in my “million bucks” outfit. Green skirt, fitted crisp white shirt with green grossgrain ribbon belt, matching jewelry and of course my awesome green shoes I bought in NYC. My hair worked that morning and I felt good. As I was walking across BYU campus to my class a girl came up next to me and said, “my friends and I have been walking behind you and wanted you to know that we think you look fabulous! All of it! The shoes, the jewelry, you really look great!” That totally made my day!!!! I was a nervous wreck up until my time for my half of the presentation, and when I got up and stood behind the podium, the Spirit just took over! My nerves were calmed and it went really well! The best part were the people that came up afterwards to give me hugs and thank yous for validating what they were going through and feeling. One mom told me she was glad to realize that her daughter (also going through this) was “normal”. I felt really blessed and really honored to be an instrument in God’s hands and bless other people’s lives by sharing what I had gone through!

Spencer said to me today as we were driving in the car, “I wish it would stop snowing!” I said that it wasn’t snowing right now and he said, “Mom see that, there is still white stuff on the ground. When is it going to go away?”

This is the time of winter that I don’t like so much. We are all sick of being couped up seeing the 4 same walls of our house over and over again. I am sick of the tv being on too much and I am ready to open my windows and air out the germs of the winter! How many more weeks until Spring?

Okay, so the first week of January I got a letter in the mail asking me to be a presenter at BYU Women’s Conference…ME? I had to read it twice to make sure I read it correctly! My class is titled: Infertility and Adoption: Romans 12:12 “Rejoicing in hope, patient in tribulation, continuing instant in prayer.”

If anyone is passionate about the emotional struggle of infertility in the LDS culture and then adoption, it is I! I am excited for the spiritual uplift that will come to my life as I prepare, and the ability to really focus on my story and what may be said to help someone else who may be struggling!

I got to go to a presenters meeting last week where BYU president, Cecil Samuelson, and General RS presidency member, Silvia Allred, spoke to us. It was amazing and the spirit was really strong. While there I thought to myself, ‘Wow…Heavenly Father must have known that I needed something like this in my life right now! I am so blessed!’

So if you want to come, I am on Thursday, April 30 at 2pm in the SWKT room 250.

Okay, so Josey puked in the car on the way to Grandma and Grandpa Teeter’s house on Monday, we think she gets car sick…YUCK!!  Then, Spencer woke up early Tuesday morning throwing up…at least he made it to the bathroom…(Chris got to spend the morning with him while I was in Salt Lake at an appointment) I hate it when he is sick because he just laid around all day long.  Thank goodness it was just one day!   Then this morning I had to go to Orem (15 min away) and just before getting off the freeway, Josey puked again, EVERYWHERE!  I think the smell is permanently embedded in the fabric of my Jeep!  I have Fabreezed it 4 times now and it still stinks!  This is one of the gross parts of being a mom!  Here’s to hoping that next week will not involve anyone throwing up!  At least a mom can hope…right???!!

Saturday was Josey’s 1st Birthday.  We had a Princess Party.  She was so cute in her princess tutu and tiara!  She didn’t know what to think of the presents and wasn’t sure if she wanted to dig in to her castle cake or not, but she did love all the kids and the attention she got.